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Sunday, 05 July 2009

  • Breathing space

    I finally have some time to just veg out and reflect! Been running around buying white goods for the new house, selecting furniture, picking out carpet samples, new locks and colours for the walls etc.

    It's all cool, but at the same time I have people asking to catch up. I usually would be really okay with it but in between work, my assignments, negotiating my settlement date and renovating the house it's been really busy!

    Work's been steady. Like steadily busy. My team leader has taken a well deserved two week holiday so I am doing her job as well as my managerial duties. I am also in charge of clinical trials, which I have been neglecting because of all the day to day duties plus I have a dedicated trials technician who does most of the groundwork.

    On top of that, I have been reviewing protocols and procedures and trialling new ones. I am just wondering if my staff members can keep up with all the new developments! My regional manager had a meeting with me last week and complained that I was going at a hundred miles an hour. She says it's not a bad thing but it's hard to keep up with my train of thought. And when I'm thinking quickly I speak really quickly as well.

    We've had a few incidences at work whereby our service fell way below our normal standards. Generally the service level has been subpar, but largely dependent on which pharmacist is on duty. The human variability in our service level obviously needs to be evened out before our three new staff members start so they don't pick up bad habits!

    I was initially worried about the age gap between me and my workmates, but now I'm like stuff it, I don't care if you know I'm 27 years old. As long we do our jobs well and you don't give me any lip service just because you're older than me I'm cool.

    Keeping positive in light of all the negative issues and complaints coming in from external sources is tough!

    Fatigued: that's probably where I'm heading.

Sunday, 28 June 2009

  • In death, we remember only the good

    " Michael Jackson made culture accept a person of color.
    Way before Tiger Woods, way before Oprah Winfrey, way before Barack Obama, Michael did with music what they later did in sports, in politics and in television."

    ~ Al Sharpton ~



    My childhood memories are punctuated by different Michael Jackson albums, different living rooms of friends have seen many an attempt at moon-walking gone wrong, and many Michael Jackson cassettes have died early deaths by constant rewinding and playing.

    We grew up, lived, watched
    In happiness, hope and despair with MJ.


    There will be no other like him.

Saturday, 20 June 2009

Saturday, 13 June 2009

  • Long ago, in a land far, far away


    Brighton beach, England,  July 2006

    Some personal journeys are more arduous and long winded than others.

     There are those that are filled with ravines, wild beasts, treacherous bog pits and even fire-breathing dragons.

     And there are those, who even with such hostile terrain, manage to navigate it successfully to realize that the sword-wielding hero on the white horse is no one other than themselves.

     I understand that some of us are built tougher or finer than others, but I am always amazed at how much the human spirit (or soul) can take and come out brilliant.

     I was just chatting to a friend about relationships, and eventually we got around to her tenuous relationship with men in general. She is the most positive, reasonable and cool chick you’ll ever meet. It’s not a façade, she is genuinely happy. She’s also independently wealthy, has awesome clothes, great hair and is a gorgeous girl.

     You’d never think that at 13 she was betrayed by a group of people she thought were her friends and raped, spent a year in solitary confinement due to depression, then spent the proceeding ten years being in abusive relationships and eventually at 26 landed in hospital because her then partner had beaten her so badly she blacked out.

     It was on that hospital bed she knew she had to change her life. She didn’t know why she stayed in those relationships or why she took all that crap, was it because she was punishing herself, that somehow that rape was her fault?

     I look at her and go wow, respect. A weaker person would have collapsed and never got back up, but is the opposite true that the experiences make us the person we are today? That she is as strong as she is because of what she has come through?

     That in our most dire moments the instinct to survive kicks in.

     People like her, make me want to slap the people who cry stress and need to go to bed because their boyfriend didn’t bring them out for Valentine’s dinner.

    Or the single mother with four children from four fathers on the dole.

    Or the brilliant, educated woman who’s so used to living with her parents she can’t do anything for herself and yet whinges she can’t find a rich boyfriend.

     Seriously.

     I know we are all built differently to cope with different things, but shit man, be thankful and happy with what you have.

    I personally, am thankful that I have friends with such powerful personal journeys. I am horrified at their ordeals, but I feel blessed that I have them in my life to be inspired by.

    Truly, there is no such thing as the impossible.

Thursday, 11 June 2009

  • Currently
    The Alchemist
    By Paulo Coelho
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    Heart

    " My heart is afraid it will have to suffer,"
    the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at the moonless sky.
    "Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.
    And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams."

    ~ The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho


    We have been told since childhood that certain things are impossible.

    An African American President of the United States in this lifetime?

    Impossible.

    A female President no less?

    Impossible.

    Twenty years ago we had no idea what was going on inside a human cell.

    Today, we know within the single human cell lies the nucleus, and within that nucleus lies neutrons and protons, and within that are quarks.

    Today, we can teleport light beams from one lab to another.

    Who's to say twenty years from now what can happen?

    I have been told my enthusiasm for change and belief system in the vast reservoir of strength within ourselves is an enthusiasm best seen in the naive and the new.

    I frequently tell my staff that impossible is not an option, and we have to believe that it isn't an option because when the stars are your limit the possibilities are endless.

    The same way, despite my frustrations and rants, I believe one day my country of birth will acknowledge true equality and realise its full potential lies not in filtering the freedom of speech, but encouraging active debate no matter how much the truth hurts.

    In order to grow we need to reflect on ourselves.

    I find that in order to lead, to inspire I need to look at myself. What is it about me that makes me great? Makes me good?

    I still can't answer this, I just know I do the best to be like the people that inspire me.

    "D," one staff and long time friend said to me the other day. "The staff love you, you know that? For the first time, they feel like someone is listening to what they have to say and is doing something about it."

    I thought that was the coolest compliment ever.

    However, they doubt whether I can sustain my 'impossible is not an option' attitude.

    "Some of them have been here a long time, and nothing has changed."

    My regional manager, who acts as my mentor, says she doesn't expect miracles from me but is really happy with what she sees thus far. She also says to be careful of what I say because the old guards may not like me changing their rules.

    I understand and am grateful for all the procedures that have been put in place to get us this far.

    But it's fun to attempt the impossible, isn't it?

Friday, 29 May 2009

Monday, 25 May 2009

  • Checking chicks



    If I had a body like that, I'd flaunt it too! I love her bright blue jumpsuit (never thought I'd say that about a jumpsuit).



    This Brian Reyes' dress is adorable on Jessica Stroup, even more so because at least she has boobs and is meatier than the model! The dress simply looks better on a fuller figure.

    On another note, I've just realised I've not blogged properly in a while or updated my Facebook! Friends are asking 'Is everything ok? You haven't updated your Facebook status in a while.'

    HAHA! Oh dear, I'm a certified internet junkie!

Sunday, 24 May 2009

  • Currently
    Foreign Land
    By Eskimo Joe
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    It is a peculiar feeling

    " Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do,
    Than by the ones you did do.
    So throw off the bowlines.
    Sail away from the safe harbor.
    Catch the trade winds in your sails.
    Explore.
    Dream.
    Discover. "

    - Mark Twain


    It is a peculiar feeling to lead.

    One realises people watch you, judge you by how you speak, what you say, when you smile, how you dress. A friend suggested that leadership at work is a facade you put up, a persona you inhabit for the time you need to appear authoritative.

    But I now feel that leadership is a full time occupation. One does not gain respect by being dishonest, by having double standards, by being false. For me, work is a personal thing.

    Is it wrong to try to exemplify the values I admire in others?

    I do feel differently, but not because I feel better than everyone else.

    I don't know, I'll let you know once I've put a finger on the buzz in my system.

Sunday, 17 May 2009

Monday, 11 May 2009

Yerdeh

  • Visit Yerdeh's Xanga Site
    • Name: Yerdeh
    • Country: Australia
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 1/9/2006

About Me

  • Nothing expands the mind, burnishes one's character, or wizens oneself more than being in the midst of a different culture: smack in the middle of an adventure. Having said all that, I can be rather boring and mundane at times prefering a good book to the smoky hallways of pulsating nightclubs. Was in NZ for 6 years, then moved to Aust for a year plus, was in London for 3 years and now I'm on my way back to Australia. Is this the end of my meandering? I doubt it...

Chatboard (10)

  • cherritan
    Hi davina! I didn't know you haven't got the new blog address! My bad! Sorry!I love your travel pics!
  • CEC32
    People who wear sunglasses in their profile photos are cool.
    • Posted 12/16/2007 2:21 PM
    • by CEC32
  • hunor2
    Lol, thanx, I need a feedback about this Ramadan- experience of my. It´s hard, I have full respect for this people who are making year for year Ramadan. And the kitchen wall will stay definitely orange ;-)
    • Posted 9/30/2007 9:24 PM
    • by hunor2
  • Yerdeh
    thanks zen! :)
    • Posted 7/11/2007 8:44 PM
    • by Yerdeh
  • hunor2
    Awsum photos in your album! Nice xanga,greetings from Germany*/Zen
    • Posted 7/11/2007 5:58 AM
    • by hunor2
  • lc_nguyen
    noooo....i like ur profile photo!!! it's HILARIOUS!! :D
  • Yerdeh
    huh? which picture?? my profile pic? :D muahaha, it's getting old...i need a new pose!
    • Posted 6/27/2007 11:25 PM
    • by Yerdeh
  • karenispink
    Hullooo hullooo hullooo I crack up everytime i see that picture of you
  • Yerdeh
    thanks dude!! when u joining our xanga brethren?? :D how r u anyway?
    • Posted 6/25/2007 11:32 AM
    • by Yerdeh
  • cherritan
    new look-and-feel.. :) nice! :)